the smell, the action, breathe in, breathe out. repeat. feel dizzy. bright colors for 2 seconds. tight lungs. warm. it’s all dad. he left me. and this is all he left me. this is all i know of him. and it destroys me.
beat me, hurt me, diss me, fuck me, hate me, give up on me. you don’t do enough of it. because if you hate me, i hate myself more. the cyclic pattern consumes me and overwhelms me. how dare you compete with me.
her limbs. his eyes. amalgating like gold in heat. everything was perfect and nothing needed to change. but of course, her limbs were too fat and his eyes were too far apart. all of these little flaws in people. nothing is ever perfect and so many things need to change.